Friday, April 1, 2011

Attitude Adjustment for April

The blogging challenge has begun!  Welcome to the first day of April.  I came up with 3 A's in my title for the first day of the challenge.  How's that for cleverness?  I am going to continue with just random thoughts like I always do.  So let's talk about attitude adjustment.  I thought since attitude begins with A and April begins with A and...well, I guess April is a good month for an attitude adjustment.  Believe me, I need one.  I am basically a pessimist, always have been.  But lately it has been out of hand.  I guess life just gets to be a downer sometimes.  I am pretty much a downer right now and truthfully  I don't like myself.  So here are the things that I need to re-adjust my attitude on.  A word of warning...this may be long!

My job-Yes, I am supposed to be thankful that I have a job when many people don't.  I am thankful but truthfully, I hate my job.  In fact I find myself dreading everyday that I walk out the door to my job.  Let me clarify this.  I like the work I do as a pharmacy technician and I love the people I work with.  What I don't like is the pressures of leaving the family, not having enough time or energy to fix dinner, the pressure of worrying about whether I will have enough hours to keep insurance for the family.  Oh and did I mention the pain of working 8 hours on my feet?  I now associate my job with pain.  It really stinks.  On my 2 days off, I literally am so wiped out from working, I end up not getting anything done and then I dread having to go back to work even more.  But alas, can't do without money and we need the insurance so here I am.  How can I adjust my attitude?  It is hard, let me tell you.  I need to make a BIG adjustment and I AM going to work at it.  Any suggestions?

My health-I almost feel bad even talking about this because there are so many people out there that are so much worse than I am but it sucks nonetheless.  I guess I have fibromyalgia.  This is what the doctor has come up with.  All I know is that it hurts all over.  I don't like it  much.  However, I can do things that may help when it comes to my own health.  My new attitude is going to be in taking better care of myself.  I have gained weight, I eat horribly and I sit here feeling sorry for myself.  How's that for a confession?  I am going to work at taking charge of my health and find something that works for me. I guess a better attitude would help??

My writing-As I pointed out yesterday, I have been trying to work on somewhat of a "writing career".  I don't even consider myself a good writer at all.  My attitude this past year in this area has been that I want to work at home because of the above mentioned problems  I have.  I wanted to find a way to make money while being at home because truthfully  I am not sure how long  I can keep this up at my job.  So, I was talking with a friend who writes and she has been most helpful in getting my feet wet in this area.  But now, as I learn  more about the writing experience  and how it all works, I have developed a new attitude about writing.  I see it as an opportunity and something that I can develop into "my voice".  Not sure exactly what that means for me but I am going to work on this voice of mine and try to make it work.  I am actually excited about it, although I have time limits right now.  Something else I need to adjust.

So, these are the three areas in my life where my "attitude" needs adjusting.  It will be hard but challenging.  On this first day of April and spring on the way, what a great time to make the change. No fooling!

~Kim~

6 comments:

  1. As they say, today is the first day of the rest of your life, right? I wish you the best with your health, your job, and your writing! I'm not a nutritionist, but I know from experience that a healthy diet can make a big difference both mentally and physically.

    Good luck with A to Z!

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  2. I love your site and as I browsed your blog I decided to award you the Creative Blog Award.

    Go to http://astorybookworld.blogspot.com/p/awards.html and pick up your award.

    ~Deirdra

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  3. you can do it - hard yes but you can - healthy eating will help but it can be so boring doing good things so dont let yourself talk yourself out of it - I talk not out of my backside I am on the same path as you - not the job bit I'm retired but trying to defeat pain with getting myself in shape and I know it's hard - don't give up April is a smashing time of year to start

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  4. Ten years ago I never thought I'd ever become a published writer. The job, the family, no time - I really hear where you're coming from. But you can do it. It doesn't matter if you write 100 words a day, or 1000 words a day as long as you write. And it will come, and it does get easier with practice.

    Anyway - I just wanted to drop in on a few of the other A to Z Bloggers and say hello. I love the name of your blog and that's what brought me here. It's going to be such a fun month reading new blogs and meeting new people.

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  5. Great Post! From another A-Z blogger! I am your newest follower.
    Kim
    http://kim-thelunchbox.blogspot.com/

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  6. i'm sure your health has greatly affected your work esp. if you're on your feet 8 hrs a day and everything hurts! I know comfortable shoes aren't enough but writing about will help a teeny bit. btw, found you via the A to Z blog challenge. :)

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