Friday, April 1, 2011
Attitude Adjustment for April
My job-Yes, I am supposed to be thankful that I have a job when many people don't. I am thankful but truthfully, I hate my job. In fact I find myself dreading everyday that I walk out the door to my job. Let me clarify this. I like the work I do as a pharmacy technician and I love the people I work with. What I don't like is the pressures of leaving the family, not having enough time or energy to fix dinner, the pressure of worrying about whether I will have enough hours to keep insurance for the family. Oh and did I mention the pain of working 8 hours on my feet? I now associate my job with pain. It really stinks. On my 2 days off, I literally am so wiped out from working, I end up not getting anything done and then I dread having to go back to work even more. But alas, can't do without money and we need the insurance so here I am. How can I adjust my attitude? It is hard, let me tell you. I need to make a BIG adjustment and I AM going to work at it. Any suggestions?
My health-I almost feel bad even talking about this because there are so many people out there that are so much worse than I am but it sucks nonetheless. I guess I have fibromyalgia. This is what the doctor has come up with. All I know is that it hurts all over. I don't like it much. However, I can do things that may help when it comes to my own health. My new attitude is going to be in taking better care of myself. I have gained weight, I eat horribly and I sit here feeling sorry for myself. How's that for a confession? I am going to work at taking charge of my health and find something that works for me. I guess a better attitude would help??
My writing-As I pointed out yesterday, I have been trying to work on somewhat of a "writing career". I don't even consider myself a good writer at all. My attitude this past year in this area has been that I want to work at home because of the above mentioned problems I have. I wanted to find a way to make money while being at home because truthfully I am not sure how long I can keep this up at my job. So, I was talking with a friend who writes and she has been most helpful in getting my feet wet in this area. But now, as I learn more about the writing experience and how it all works, I have developed a new attitude about writing. I see it as an opportunity and something that I can develop into "my voice". Not sure exactly what that means for me but I am going to work on this voice of mine and try to make it work. I am actually excited about it, although I have time limits right now. Something else I need to adjust.
So, these are the three areas in my life where my "attitude" needs adjusting. It will be hard but challenging. On this first day of April and spring on the way, what a great time to make the change. No fooling!